Road Written

-the creative quest- 

When the Best Creativity Techniques Are About Doing Nothing

Sometimes, I sit down to do my creative stuff and there’s nothing there.

My concept of creativity centers around writing, so when the words don’t arrive, the panic does.

I know about creative resistance. I know many ways to tackle the Beast:

Yet I may know all the tools and creativity techniques in the world and a portion of my mind will continue to stomp her feet, clench her fists, and yell no no no!

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Friday Roundup: I Know Things Edition . . . Unladylike in the Library

This week has been relatively uneventful (there ya go, Megg—reel ‘em in!).
To feel like I’m moving toward profit procurement as I wait to hear back from an agent about my book proposal, I’ve been doing things like studying Google Analytics and trying to figure out why people are signing up for a blog that I haven’t worked on since 2013.
But, between terribly produced Google training videos (Google’s budget must be tight) and cooking lots of leftovers that I scrounge from anybody, I have found five things that you need to know about! Wow! Exciting!

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Looking Back: Who We Were Then and Now (Or: Same Same, Different)

I did not know who I was when I first left to go traveling. I was twenty-five.

I also do not know now. I am thirty-one.

Now, I am also leaving to go travel. Back to Portland before I wind my way across the country to end up, surprisingly, where I stand right now—Georgia.

I look back on the sixteen months begun in 2013, drifting through fifty-two cities, doing things, meeting people, learning skills like farming or construction . . . and I can’t say I know what it was for.

It seems a sort of glowing light, a hallowed path stringing me along to leave me finally on the other side, without answers.
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Friday Roundup: Scary Things Edition . . . Patreon, Music, a Book in a Month, Oh My!

It’s the first week on January and ohhhh goals are so hard! I didn’t even set any goals this year, it’s last year’s hangers-on that are after me.

And they should be after me, because I set them two weeks ago and immediately fell off the goal wagon. It was Christmas, there was a visitor, there was travel . . . I’m giving me a break. Kind of (stop yelling at me, brain!).

I’m back to life that isn’t mostly eating, drinking, and merrymaking, so that means remembering how to behave as a non-paid professional.

Non-paid professional—it’s like the worst game of dress-up.

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Friday Roundup: Exercising Commitment Edition

Remember that time I was trying to do something on a consistent weekly basis? I lasted seven weeks, but . . .

Here I am, trying again! That’s nice, that’s good.

Every once in awhile I get this wild hair saying, “Hey Megg, you should be consistent about things sometimes!”

It’s a pretty crazy thought, I know, but I’m going to give it a go again.

A friend recently told me that he’s going “off-romance” for a year. He’s trying to clean up some emotional habits and addictions, so no dating, no innocent kisses, no porn, no masturbating.

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Most Underrated Use of Friends? Crazy Prevention.

I was just messing around in the kitchen, making fun of myself for something out loud, when I thought,

“If you pretend you’re going crazy for an audience of zero, does it mean you’re maybe actually going crazy?”

Then, I thought, “that was kind of a funny thought.”

But then, I thought, “Wait . . . I actually just had that thought.”

I tell myself that the initial thought crossed my mind only as a sardonic way to make fun of myself for making fun of myself. I mean, just because I’m alone doesn’t mean I shouldn’t try to make someone (me) smile.

But I did have to wonder: would I think such things if I didn’t spend 96% of my time alone?

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The Difference Between Doing Your Best and Doing Better

What do I write about!? Time lately spent rebooting my blog formatting has caused me to revisit the past year’s posts and I don’t want to make this one about complaints. There’s been enough of that. Nor do I want to talk about distraction—enough of that, too.

(If you’re counting, I’m sorry. Kind of.)

But what else is there in my world?!

I’m kidding. I’m kidding . . . but also, I think I did hear that question lightly posed in my mind. Is that who I am? Is Negative Nancy rocking my house?

There’s something easy about sitting in front of this computer and writing things out to a faceless audience. I let my guard down. I think (for some reason) that I can get away with complaining, and that instead of adding negativity to the universe, I’m attracting commiseration and letting other sufferers know they’re not alone.

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Achtung! The Hidden Health Risks of Creative Pursuit

The intent of this quest was to pursue creativity. I was tired of jobs that weren’t fulfilling. But beginning meant releasing things from myself I hadn’t accessed before.

From where would come the words to share? From where the confidence to do so?

And in finding, opening these parts of me, other things escaped, too. Insecurities. Dreams. Curiosities.

Rumbling, resounding echoes that have called me since the day I began this journey seem to originate in the realm of my relationship with relationships.

Relationships. I have been knocking them down, slogging my way through shams, and allowing them to run a parallel path, it seems, to the trajectory of this year’s creative pursuits.

And always what seems to be initially real morphs into a final illusion. Still, something remains when it’s all over: me, but changed.

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How Four Chunks Are Causing You to Stop Yourself RIGHT NOW

“In any particular moment, our conscious awareness can hold on to only approximately four chunks of information. This is called our working memory.”

We are looking at a display of pies.

Vast and interminable, here lie all pies imaginable, every pie known to man. Mom’s cherry pie. Peanut butter chocolate pudding (graham cracker crust). Apple-cinnamon with crumble topping.
And bad pies, too. It’s every pie. Poisonberry pie. Dogshit pie. Grass and nettle pie.

You take four pieces from any pie you want. Four chunks. Whichever you want. You’ll never be full, and you’ll never gain weight. But there must always be four before you.

When you finish one, you must then go get another. Or, you can swap out unfinished pieces. But always four.

And the supply is ever-replenished! You can do this for the rest of your life! Forever pies! Life is amazing!

So….

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The Flight and Funk of Creativity

Last year, I departed Italy on October 31st. This year, I left for Italy on October 31st. I could get really heady about that and talk about it being a day of death and renewal, but it’s likely just coincidence.
Anyway, I’m back in Italy.
My friends are getting married in Rome over Thanksgiving, and not being one to waste an entire ticket to Europe on only a few days of festivity, I contacted the woman for whom I housesat last year and she was happy to have me back for another three weeks.

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Faith or Fool—What’s Fueling Your Work?

We speak of dreams, hope, and expectations. But how does all that relate to faith?

In this year of pursuing a career of creativity, one thing I’ve learned is how to keep working when there are only scraps to feed my hope that all these efforts will actually turn any profit.

This, I suppose, could be called faith.

It’s not blindly hoping that things will turn out well. It’s days, months, even years of exerting and investing time and effort with the relatively baseless belief that it will pay off.
What is that if not faith?

Or, maybe it’s just gambling. Maybe I’m a faithless gambler.

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The Drug of Daydreams

My last post explained why we should avoid expectations.
They provide the disservice of filling up present time with things that often don’t come to pass. It’s filling a bucket with a hole in the bottom.
But what if we’re not “expecting”? What if we’re just weighing options, considering possibilities . . . daydreaming?
Let’s get meta. Let’s think about this philosophically: Why live in a Future when there is a Now?
One exists, one doesn’t.

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Recently 30, I’ve pressed the reset button on my life and begun a quest to figure out how to shape this thing called life into exactly what I want. I’m self-educating (read: fumbling blindly) to learn how to make a living as a writer and how to be my own business. I’ll be documenting my progress, blabbling about my travels along the way, interviewing cool people, and hopefully making this fun and inspiring for all of us. Join the e-mail list, come along!